After our clinics duty this morning, where I met an resident doctor in the public hospital who has a very diddly attitude and had some encounter with him, I was feeling empty. I mean, I feel so tired, physically and mentally.
I am having an empty Thursday, today!
At this very moment, I wanted to do nothing but to play poker. I want to relax myself. I have gotten hyped with that doctor earlier. I felt like I almost to burst my tension. But just because I am yet a medicals student and of course, I need to obey him, though he is not our preceptor, but the thought that he is one of the resident doctors in that hospital, I need to calm myself down. I know this is just part of being a medical student — sometimes, one could experience slaps through words that I might even chose to receive a punch directly on my face or on my abdomen than doing those stuff on me. The worst thing is that, many other medical students, medical interns and other medical staffs were there – listening and even looking at us.
Tomorrow, since announced to have no classes, I might get myself a day to relax. I want to get over with this feeling of emptiness.